They’re knocked out and I’m wide awake…. I’m bored asfuck.
Why am I so fucked up?
Why don’t my friends like me anymore
Why am I always depressed
Why do I get so jealous
Why do I get hit by my dad
Why does my mom not give a shit what I do
Why do I get bad grades
Why am I possessive of my bestfriend
Why do I still love my ex
Why can’t I be a normal
Why can’t I be loved for who I am
Why do I always compromise my standards for shit people
Why did I let myself fall in love with her
Why do I think sex will help me get my mind off of her
Why do I feel sorry for myself
Why didn’t I stay going to church
Why am I suicidal
Why do I cut
Why am I the way I am
Why didn’t I stay myself through 7th grade to now
Why bother?
Why eat?
Why play sports?
Why have friends?
Why do I move every fucking 3 years
Why does he have to be in the force
Why did I just think of starwars when I said tht
Why do I have to watch out for everything I say
Why won’t people e straight forward with me
Why do I get super jealous when my 2 bestfriends hangout without me
Why do I let it bother me
Why do I always think that the only thing on their mind is sex
Why do I not trust people
Why did she have to ruin everything
Why did I have to meet her
Why couldn’t she have dated another redhead
Why am I blaming her
Why why why!!!!!!
Point is I fucking hate who I have become over the past year! I’m a clingy ,possessive, annoying, ugly, fat, bitch! Who noooooooone likes!!!! Everyone hates me I get pissed for no reason! Maybe it’s me moving idfk but I’m pissed off at myself for getting pissed for no reason. My bestfriend Chris probably hates me right now. But I don’t like that him and my ex are hanging out an I didn’t know. I know it’s none of my business. Wait of there my friends wouldn’t it be my business. I don’t know. If I were someone else I wouldn’t like me either. I don’t want people thinking I need attention all the time I just vent alot and I’m like talking to myself and shit. I do want die really bad…. But I don’t want my family I be sad for the rest of their lives. Noone in Tennessee would care because they wouldn’t know. I’m crying my eyes out right now I just want something to take me away….
